Ivy's poems

[Ivy]

What do you say when they come crashing down?
Can I really change much for you?
A pitying ear, someone holding you dear
Saying “It'll be alright” don't make it true

Where do I send the lost ones,
the ones hurt so deep inside?
Should I keep them close and guard them
Or send them off to hide?

My life isn't mine it seems, it belongs to them,
the ones I lead down this knife thin line.
Yet I can't fathom what to do when their lives come crashing down
When I'm still doing fine.

[Ivy]

Breaking, spine snapping,
skittering hands and nails without purchase
the maw crunches shut around his ribs
I scream to the cold iron bars between us, the beast and I

it's inky black, darker than the shadow it's caged in
but the angel glows, oh he shines, broken as he is
and it seems all the more abhorrent for it
a hard task to accomplish

the prey, no, the TOY is tossed like a ragdoll
thrashed about, crashing around
shaken until the pain has the angel sobbing
before the beast flings him away

I shake, this foul thing, this mockery of life
it broke an angel, it tore him down
ripped off his wings as it cast him away
like a scab picked off

but I am no angel

I'm much more horribly human
so much closer to this monster in spirit
It cannot hurt me as much, I was born half wounded
The fangs will not peel me from my skin with sorrow

I brace myself, I lock eyes with pure white eyes, the only pure thing about it.
Oh, don’t worry, the blind demon can still hurt me. But I will outlast the angel.
For I am no stranger to this demon that hunts all things
I am familiar with “love”

[Ivy]

Everything changes in the fall.
The sun sleeps sooner
The woods grow wilder
The hours seem heavier

Everything starts in the fall
Smiles come easier
Hearts beat together
Tears fall faster

Everywhere glows in the fall
Colors are warmer
Lights are brighter
Fires are warmer

Everyone’s bare in the fall
Pain grows sharper
Joy runs deeper
Troubles seem inferior

Every night lingers in fall
Laughter is simpler
Happiness is closer
Fears are nearer

I get scared in the fall
Because suddenly you’re dearer
My faults are clearer
Inadequacy shows me the mirror

[Ivy]

I trusted you
For four years I’d believed in the words from your damn lips.
And yet, what did you do?
You sashay off, smiling that girlish grin, teeth poison bright at the tips.

So was I a stepping stone?
A means to your end?
The idea cuts me, deeper than bone.
I had called you my friend

This is my last look at your face.
Lying through your teeth.
I hope everyone sees that, while sugar on the surface
You’re infested and rotten underneath.

(PS: Why?)

[Ivy]

She shivers in the cold.
The heat is off, the lights are out.
Save for her table lamp.
The text on the page is making her doubt.

Time is slipping, she needs to know.
Her head is pounding, her hands are shaking.
The letters blur
Vision starts quaking

Get it right, get it done
she can feel sleep trying to command
her remedy is a splash of cold water
she's awake, the rest of her shaking as much as her hand.

Back to the book she goes
She has to have it perfect, dawn is drawing near
Her gut clenches and she pushes on
Tests are coming, her future draws near

Will
Tears
Sanity
Sleep

The cost of success

[Renz]

I like that alot, actually.

[Ivy]

I miss the old house, I had a rosebush there that I'd planted as a kid


Roses for July

I'm here in the dirt, lying back and breathing in the summer heat and air
the night is cooler than I thought
I've seen the sun go down, seen it rise, seen dealings crooked and unfair
Now I'm looking up, seeing a star ignite and die
never thought it'd be so beautiful, I could almost cry

Here it's nice and quiet, with the crickets for my own private band
I'm nice and broken
Feeling thorns from my roses digging into my hand
It kinda stings, it almost hurts but it's worth it to hold the red petals in my fingers
So soft, so much better than the grass, sweet as sugar, lulling as it lingers

Almost sad in the night
hold 'em tight like a child
the roses say it's gonna be alright
they keep me from being wild

Hell it might make me bleed a little, make me pull back an inch, but I can't really care
they smell so sweet, make me smile
I'd reach past the briars for the bloom, beauty past the thorns they can't help but share
supernovas above my head and roses in my hand, thin nightgown dancin' around my knees
I feel safe, I belong, don't feel bared to the chilly, stinging world if only roses see

[Ivy]

(Thank the gods for rhyming dictionaries)


It’s the faded photo
In a heart shaped frame
Us underneath the tree
Carving in our names

Time is marching on
The picture’s old
But it still applies
To the feelings we hold

I never cared for someone
Not like how I care for you
You make me smile at just your name
And with almost everything you do

Sure you can make me mad
You can make me cry
But underneath it I love you still
And I’m still willing to try

Empty frames line the halls
Of my dreaming mind
Pictures we haven’t taken yet
Moments we have yet to find

In sleep I can touch your face
from a thousand miles away
I can almost feel your breath
And it makes me dread the coming day

I don’t want to wake up alone
Splayed out back where I began
At least when I see the calendar I smile
Time is passing faster than I expected it can